squished bananas

has your world ever fallen to shit?
mine just did.

but not in that "the-world-blew-up-and-i-picked-myself-up-dusted-off-my-jacket-and-became-a-stronger-person" way.

mine just blew up in a "everyone-point-their-fingers-and-tell-me-how-i-fucked-it-up-fucked-everything-up-just-like-i-always-fuck-everything-up" way.

i'm kinda numb right now.
numb and nauseous.